Void Space

"Only within the void does the truth enter." A line taken from the book Windhorse Woman by Lynn V. Andrews. I've read many quotes on what I call "void space". Nature abhors a vacuum - a quote from Aristotle has always spoken to me about "void space". His meaning has been explained as any empty space must be filled. I sit with both messages resonating deeply within me. Sitting "in the stew" as I've spoke of before is where I feel the truth enters for me. My definition of the "void space". It's in that uncomfortable space where I feel what's meant to be felt. That feeling is often truth. Many times I've caught myself lying to myself. Sometimes just a "little white lie" and other times a big fat one that's almost unbelievable, yet I believe it. In these times that I lie there's a reason for it. Either I'm choosing that I'm not ready to listen to the truth, to let the void space happen. Or I am still learning the lesson and need to continue down a path. The choice I then make is to listen to my gut telling me to "stay the course" even when I know the truth of the situation and want to get out- I want to run. Knowing this lesson is a tough one and I need to stay because I don't want to start over and learn it again. That I know I'm ready but it's scary. It's in those moments the lessons are learned and staying is the answer.

To give an example- the scenario might be that I know someone is lying to me but in order for me to learn I need to continue on with the relationship. Holding space in their presence and in doing so growing myself, being a mirror and seeing into my own mirror. Trusting my gut telling me not to run; that even though this is tough, staying is the answer. Not the easy choice but the one that serves me best. That when the lesson is over I'll innately know and can leave then. I'm not speaking of a scenario where the other parties' lies are harmful in a physical or emotional way. The lies are part of their story and being detached and not "calling them on it" is a practice. Acceptance of where they are at and loving them unconditionally if that's what my gut calls me to do. I know the thought comes up for me "Who am I to judge the space they are in". I can only know where I'm at and be authentic in that. If my gut says stay, then I trust and stay. Knowing that act of staying for me is a valuable one and on the other side of it will be the void space. The truth will come and then the calm emptiness before the space is then filled with the next lesson.

The period just before my birthday was one of these voids. It was a profound one and I entered into my birthday light and so open to accepting the love that was shared with me. I send much love and gratitude for all the kind and loving wishes that you all sent me. Here I sit a week later and I'm still basking in the glow of their light. Knowing things are ebbing and the void has begun to fill once again. I smile knowing I'm ready for the next lesson to come my way. Until it shows itself I'll soak up all the moments, like the waves in the ocean. Moving me along, caressing as they ebb and flow carrying me. Eyes closed I surrender to its beauty and soak up the energy. Thank you for floating alongside me again this week. Happy Vernal Equinox, first day of Spring. May you have planted some beautiful seeds that come to fruition this year. To your moments where there's void space, I hold my hands to my heart and bow my head. Namaste. May it serve you on your journey. Sending so much love and aloha Jodi xxoo